Originally Posted by amityroberts
Everbody has asymmetrical facial features...some more than others. Some celebs will only have pics shot using their "good side" of their face (Ie: Paris Hilton, Drama from Entourage...). Don't beat yourself up over imperfections. I don't think they offer reconstructive jaw bone sx? Honestly, the left side of your face looks better...You need to take care of the things you can control right now: wax eyebrows, clear complexion, softer haircut, smile. You have nice, full lips and strong features. I can relate to your feelings of obsession though...And I agree w/ Robyne, you do need to take care of the inner self too. Maybe be treated for OCD? How old are you, and what are you using for your skin/hormones...?
BTW...appearance does make the 1'st impression, but really it's about attitude and personality. Unfortunately, I was terribly shy growing up. It's hard to train yourself to be open, positive and have a more "attractive" personality. But, it's necessary. Also, start thinking about giving and doing for other people and don't over-obsess about yourself all the time. You'll feel better about yourself, and people will appreciate you for who you are and your efforts...not your face. BTW...do you self-mutilate (ie
ick at your face repeatedly?)
I am no professional though, so I can't "professionally speak", just giving some feed-back
what's jawbone sx? lol no way i'm waxing my eyebrows. i do clean them up
though a bit though with tweezers. i am trying to clear my complexion right
now. i don't think my acne is that severe, so i only use benzoyl peroxide at
night and then moisturize 10 minutes later before i sleep. in the morning i
wash my face with this neutrogena face wash that's supposed to remove
blackheads (dunno if have those but i use that anyway). then i put on this
neutrogena acne stress control moisturizer that has salycic acid in it.
i'm 19 years old.. as for my feelings, i really do have a lot of pain inside.
i've never fully opened up to anyone ever, just one time with my mom (when i
told her of my plans on getting plastic surgery) and another friend of mine. i
have asked my mom if i could see a psychiatrist before and she said she would
take me to one, but i changed my mind. i decided i didn't want to open up and
tell some stranger about my problems and have him sit there listening for hours
trying to analyze me pretending he cared, till i hand him a check at the end and
he sends me on my way.. i already know what i have to do anyway..
i've always been a shy kid, even back before when i wasn't ugly (believe it or
not i was cute as a kid). i'd only surround myself with a group of people and never
really sought out anymore people than that. there was this one year (in 6th grade)
when i was so full of confidence though. i don't exactly know why i was that way that
one year but i remember how happy i was. i did everything with confidence
and everything i did seemed so natural. i was never worried about making a fool out
of myself or hesitating to speak. i did so well in school and my teacher even said
i was the smartest kid in the class (over this other student who went to gifted school).
then i remember girls started calling me "chubby butt" during recesses and i think that
may have started my problems with girls.
high school started and my whole social problem really started to grow, i didn't know it
at the time though. i remember being scared to just get on the bus to go to school. i felt
like the whole world was staring at me. to make it worse i was fat back then, to the point
where you couldn't recognize my jawline at all. i had a few incidents where i'd catch
someone staring at me or some random stranger would just call me ugly and i'd do my best
to brush it off. i had ZERO confidence in myself. i could never look people in the eye.
i felt awkward EVERYWHERE. that alone really messed me up. i play basketball and i never had the chance to develop as a player because of that. i remember being just as good or even better than most of the kids on the ball team during lunch time, but when it came to playing with everyone watching... i couldn't play to my full potential because i was scared with people watching me. i loved winter cause that's the only time i could wear a hoody and hide myself from the rest of the world.
as for my social skills, i had next to none. like in grade school, i made my
group of friends then shut everyone else out. i can remember having so many people
ask me why i was so quiet. teachers would always notice it and they'd always ask me about it.
when other kids (outside of my circle) would try and conversate with me i'd always let them
do all the talking. i've even had people (even to this day) i've only met comment on how
i need to talk more. i was an introvert and never seeked socializing with people.
it's actually funny how you said i need to smile... i remember my
english teacher in 12th grade telling me the same thing lol.
girls... i never talked to girls unless they spoke to me (then i would only let them do all
the talking), or if i was drunk. it's funny how those same girls that used to make fun of me
and call me "chubby butt" back in grade school would always ask me why i never talked.
it sucks that throughout the so-called "best years of my life", i was basically a walking zombie.
i've only realized all this the past year when people began questioning me more often why i was
so weird. i guess it's a good thing i've finally let my pride aside and stop hiding from the truth.
i'm weird cause i'm scared of the world. i'm ugly and don't feel like a part of society, and it's not
my fault because that's the way i've been treated. people do indeed treat good looking people better,
there's no question about it and as much as i hate to admit it, i'm no different. it's proven good
looking people lead better lives. i'm going to be treated unfairly my whole life looking like this.
I AM NOT trying to look like zac efron... i get the idea you guys think i'm some kinda dude who's
overly-obsessive with looks who's trying to be something he's not. i just want to have more confidence
in myself and be able to live life without worrying about people judging me, and being scared to
talk to socialize in fear of getting that "look" and feeling like sh!t.
i hope you guys don't think i'm crazy. but there it is.. story of my life.
...and i don't self-mutilate or whatever