| | i think heidi is beautiful before and after but
i think she has to feel empty inside. I wonder myself if i will ever be beautiful. i see all the time how people better looking than me get treated better and respected and i can't just walk away and say oh well. i cry and imagine myself being beautiful but not caring about anyone givig me any attention because i know they're just being vain. I got a nose job and am getting another one and i want to know what else i can do to finally become beautiful. i hate being average, some peole say i'm beautiful but when other attractive girls are around i'm not noticed, so i really thihg i must be average. i want a beautiful face so bad. this is against my religion too this vanity. its a deadly sin. i'm afraid that if i get this done, i will not go to heaven. does anyone else struggle with this? i didn't know where to post this there is no general post topic.